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After waiting for hours she then walked into ocean, to
bathe and soothe herself, off the thoughts that tormented her all
through the night's darkness. With the dawn, and rising sun, she
finds herself, new, alive and with new aspirations and hope. Waves
shower her with affection and give her the soothing touch, calm her,
and tell her, everything is fine. The sun rays touch her cheeks and
forehead and give the warmth she felt, when her mother wiped her
tears, with her warm hands. The storm that has risen in the darkest
hour of night had now subsided, and she walked into the ocean, not
with pain, but with an answer in her heart and solution clear in her
mind.
The night had been miraculously magical to her. She found herself
musing over her past, and the pain, she gave, to everybody. Her
father's death has sure created a vogue in her life, and made her
feel very insecure. This walk to the ocean, in the night and wait
until the dawn had made her relive all pain, suffering, and learn
from it, to deal with it. This has been therapeutic in the sense that
she was now not feeling insecure at all. She was free from the fear
of insecurity, from the fear itself. The ocean helped her silently
all night, by being her companion on a pain filled, journey that
ended with, her finding peace.
She was now able to see clearly, what had to be done, she had to
just move on, let time heal her, like the ocean that healed her off,
the pain she experienced that night, on her birthday. She was
inconsolable after she found that her father did know, that his death
was nearer and had hidden this from her, but left her a surprise gift
to be given to her, at the stroke of midnight. She could not control
her tears, that were flowing, not because her father moved on, but
because she was so ignorant about her father's condition. Had she
known, her father was dying, she would never have argued with him,
for as silly a reason like a foreign trip, with friends on her
birthday. Her ailing father only wished her to be near her, but she
gave greater importance to her ego, that was provoked by her peers,
with words like, ''you are grown up now, a major, you have every
right to decide.''
If only, her mother did not abide by her father's words, and told
her about his condition, she would have made sure to spend all her
time with her father and bade him a good farewell. She was so
overcome with grief, when she was informed about her father's death,
but was presented the gift her dad left her, she could not party any
more. She left the party venue, came running to the ocean, and sat on
the cold sand, which made her feel worse at first, when she thought
how cold would have her father gone now. She wanted to have a last
glimpse of her father, but it was not to be done, for she was now,
very far away from him. With these thoughts, she walked all night,
feeling insecure at first, for she has lost her first hero, who was
very protective of her. This feeling gave away, and was replaced with
guilt and remorse, how could she do this to her father. She had been
his princess all these years, how did she let herself get carried
away.
The car keys she was given by the person delivering the car for
her birthday fell from her hands. She was battling all night with
guilt, and when the rays of sun began to dawn upon her, she started
seeing her purpose to live. She has to take care of her mother, now.
It would have been the first thing her father would have told her, if
she were beside him at his deathbed. Then she realized that life she
led until now, always had a protective covering her father gave her.
From now on, she has to fight her own battles with her own wit, use
the experience of her father's problem handling ability and remember
his advices, given in the past to solve any problem that came her
way.
She promised herself, that she would do this to perfection and
make her father proud. The ocean was calling her to take a soothing
bath, as if to appreciate her, for having found the right way at
last, and how could she say no? She had to oblige, and after
waiting for hours, she then walked into the ocean, clearer in
mind and lighter at heart.
